STUPID CHAIRS.

I am a failure in life. I still am flummoxed by how I got into Symphony in the first place. Not that I want to drop out or get dropped out or anything, but that was just too much.
And I was actually doing pretty good! I get 5th chair, then 4th chair. I was ON A ROLL!! But then, I don't know. I guess it was nerves.
See, Ms. Victor made us play "Fire Dance", and I tried my best, but she made us play the hard part. And then right when I was supposed to play, I realized that I'd been practicing with a wrong note. And then by shadow-bowing I corrected it, but I was really nervous so my coordination sucked, and then I screwed up really bad. :(
AND THEN I GOT 10TH CHAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<
So, for the concert, I'm stuck behind all these tall people, and I'm in the 3rd row, right in the middle-back. So no one can see me. THIS SUCKS.
But....I guess it's ok, because if I mess up, then no one can see me mess up. I can be up there talking and no one would notice. Except for Ms. Victor. And if she saw me, she'd give me a bad grade. So I don't think I will.
TENTH CHAIR!!!!!!! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm good.