Change

Hola guys. I read this post on Alex's blog, and I realized how alike we think. :P

But first, some person (Alex) mentioned how I always changed my blog layout, but I have a REASON for it. Well, 2. The first one (the shallow one) is that, well...Blogger just updated their layout designer thing, and I wanted to try them all out! So every like...few weeks, I find a coolio one to replace the other one that I've gotten bored with. :P

OK but like the second reason is...I decided I needa start CHANGING stuff, ya know? It's like... I dunno. Change is a part of life. Of course, if it happens too much, then that sucks...but still..without it, life gets...drab and gray.

It's like God meant for there to be change in the world. There's different weather every day, the seasons change, there's day and night, different animals, different type of people, and on and on. What makes us different is what keeps us together. :) Isn't that cool?

Ok, well, maybe not. But..even if you can't see the change in the world, you can experience it. I'ma talk about myself for the rest of this post, sorry for being "self - centered" or whatever. But I see most changes in myself, so it's easier for me to describe.

In any random order, a change in me would be my taste in music. Lol when I was like, 4, I would still sing in the car, but I'd listen to 99.1 (which is like slow love songs for adults), and I'd get half the words wrong and not understand what's coming out of my mouth. Then in elementary school I started listening to 96.5, because I thought it was "more modern", but really it's just like...some songs were modern, and others were oldies, but the beats in the those songs were really strong. Eventually my parents got "headaches", so I was forced to find a new station. :) Which is what I listen to now, 104.1 KRBE. I like their music, it's like...everything mashed together and played a lot so I can memorize the words. But it's not played TOO much that i get sick of the songs.

My point is, before I liked slow songs, and now it's fast beated dance music. :) But slow songs are cool, too. It depends on the rhythm.

Also, I've changed in school. Before I wouldn't procrastinate AT ALL, and I'd start studying like...3 or 4 days before the test/quiz, but now it's like the night before. :P Plus I've gotten less focused, I think, and though i occasionally freak out about school, I'm much more laid back, if I say so myself.

My personality's also changed. According to my parents, I went from "quiet to wild." In my opinion, I've just gotten meaner. In other words, I've seen the "real world", and now I'm practicing to get ready for living in it.

You know what's also changed? MY SELF ESTEEM. I used to be this super unconfident scared little girl, but now i'm all like I'M AWESOME. Of course, I'm still unconfident on the inside, but I try not to show it...it'd just seem like I'm fishing for compliments. Which annoys me, in case you don't know.

The way I think has also changed. When I was little, the preppy people = rich whites who dress prettily. And I'd think like, "One day I'll be way better than them, and I'll get a good job, and be smarter." And I dressed like the fobiest kid ever, with my little bowl cut. Lol.

And now I actually have a screwed up hairstyle (which is getting better), and try to dress ok - ish. I don't care about clothes as much as I probably could, but... :) let's just say this much: I like going to the mall and shopping now. If I saw myself saying that before, I'd be horrified, lol.

The way I talk has changed DRASTICALLY. I'd have like, words to say when I make mistakes, but they've changed from "darn it" to "dang it" to "crap" to "crud" to "shit" to "dammit." (which is what i say now, though I try to watch my language.)

Speaking of language, I have gotten SO PERVERTED these past 2 years. In 6th grade I was SO INNOCENT, 7th was a bit worse, but...I still didn't think the way I do now. Who knew the world's so dark, and there's so many slang words for all those...bad things people do?

A major thing is the way I feel now? Lol that's awkward. But like...shortly put, guys used to be "gross" and have "germs/cooties", and they were "stupid", but now they're great friends. (Ok, if you can't get the subliminal message behind that, then you seriously have no calling in life. no offense.)

Yeah, well, i'ma go now. Point of this super long waste of life post is, change is a part of life. Deal with it. XD