Hello. :) Another rant today. If you're tired of these, then don't read. It won't be too long though.
Ok so since I'm in high school now, I get home early, and pretty much 15 minutes into my homework the elementary school gets out, and almost EVERY DAY I see these 3 brothers walking home together. There's one older one, and I think the younger 2 are twins? I don't know.
But every time I see them walk by, I just wanna cry, because I realize that I am a REALLY BAD SISTER to..my sister. I don't know if that big brother acts so nice to his little bros all the time ('cause that'd be a frickin' miracle), but every time I see them together, he's SO caring for them.
Like one time one of the younger ones couldn't get his backpack zipped up, and he was lagging behind, so the older brother ran back to help him. D: I mean, I'd do that, too for my sis, but I don't think I could've done it so willingly with like..no annoyance at her.
And then another day they were all laughing together, and I was like...SHIZZ. 'Cause I felt SO guilty. (It's not that I don't laugh with my sister, but when those kids do it, it's kind of like...like they have no worries in the world, and the little kids are all like, "aw, my life's ok. I have a big brother to deal with it all! :)"
I don't know. That's just what I see from my point of view. And I'm not super MEAN to my sister, but I guess sometimes I just take her for granted, and other times I get really mad..but it's not like I cuss her out or hit her or anything. o.o That's like...sibling abuse.
But still. Everytime I try to do something nice for her, it's with good intentions. (Haha see what I did there? ;D) But most of the time I do something wrong or she doesn't like it or whatever, and then we start arguing. But then we forgive each other, and it happens all again, so.. hm...
I dunno. I just want my sister and I to be really close when she gets older, because the truth is, when we're adults (if we live that long) the closest thing I'll ever have is her. So...I mean..I gotta build up to that, you know?
Anyways. Sorry for the rant? I just had to get this off my chest...shoulders..whatever. Hopefully those of you who have siblings know what I'm talking about, too?
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Thursday, September 2, 2010
RAWR.
Do you know those people that are like, super good at everything without trying? Or like...they're good at everything without trying, and if they DID try, they'd be the best in everything? It drives me CRAZY!
Because every day I work for forever doing homework, and practicing instruments, and there are just those people that NEVER practice and get higher chairs or in a higher orchestra than me, and some people do their homework in class and never take notes and still pass tests with high grades.
And then there's me, who works her butt off. I admit I get all A's (not trying to be a hypocrite here), but still. If I was as smart as them, and I STILL worked the same as now, I could probably skip a grade, and learn 2 more instruments, and join the dance team, and STILL have high grades and free time. (Ok maybe that was an exaggeration.)
And it makes me mad when they're all complaining how I got a higher grade than them, but they never complain about how much more work I have to do, and how much more I have to study. Really, they should look at it from MY point of view.
Like for example, in Computer Science, I'm probably taking the most notes. And I'm still pretty confused. Plus I have the least math experience in the whole class except for this other guy, who's favorite thing in the world is probably computers. So technically I'm at the most disadvantage in the whole class of 29 people. So what if I get a good grade? Of course I WANT one, but I'm probably working the most, too.
Sorry had to get that out. Ever since school started I've realized there are so many more people that are waay more capable than me. It's kind of depressing.
But anyways. I have 2 more quizzes and tests to study for, so I'm gonna try and have a positive attitude, and make the best of the rest of this week..this year..probably the rest of my life. Since there'll always be someone better than me..I guess it's motivation?
Ahh the camp messages are kind of slipping away from me now. I've gotta make it like a monthly goal to stay pure like a white sheet of paper (simile!), and still be close with God, and be a BETTER PERSON.
Of course, there's people still at more of a disadvantage than me. So thank you Lord, I'm very grateful for what you've given me. :) Please forgive me for my sins, and continue to give me faith. Gracias.
RAWR.
Because every day I work for forever doing homework, and practicing instruments, and there are just those people that NEVER practice and get higher chairs or in a higher orchestra than me, and some people do their homework in class and never take notes and still pass tests with high grades.
And then there's me, who works her butt off. I admit I get all A's (not trying to be a hypocrite here), but still. If I was as smart as them, and I STILL worked the same as now, I could probably skip a grade, and learn 2 more instruments, and join the dance team, and STILL have high grades and free time. (Ok maybe that was an exaggeration.)
And it makes me mad when they're all complaining how I got a higher grade than them, but they never complain about how much more work I have to do, and how much more I have to study. Really, they should look at it from MY point of view.
Like for example, in Computer Science, I'm probably taking the most notes. And I'm still pretty confused. Plus I have the least math experience in the whole class except for this other guy, who's favorite thing in the world is probably computers. So technically I'm at the most disadvantage in the whole class of 29 people. So what if I get a good grade? Of course I WANT one, but I'm probably working the most, too.
Sorry had to get that out. Ever since school started I've realized there are so many more people that are waay more capable than me. It's kind of depressing.
But anyways. I have 2 more quizzes and tests to study for, so I'm gonna try and have a positive attitude, and make the best of the rest of this week..this year..probably the rest of my life. Since there'll always be someone better than me..I guess it's motivation?
Ahh the camp messages are kind of slipping away from me now. I've gotta make it like a monthly goal to stay pure like a white sheet of paper (simile!), and still be close with God, and be a BETTER PERSON.
Of course, there's people still at more of a disadvantage than me. So thank you Lord, I'm very grateful for what you've given me. :) Please forgive me for my sins, and continue to give me faith. Gracias.
RAWR.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Fish Life
So it's been what...almost 2 weeks of school?
The first week of my Freshman hs year ended, and it took FOREVER, too. (By the way, I never understood why they called us "Fish." I mean, I guess "fresh" sounds like "fish", but it's not like they call seniors "sharks" or juniors "jelly fish," so why us? Really.
Anyways I'm just gonna rant out my thoughts of high school: It's not as good as I thought it would be. Which isn't a big surprise, right? I mean, I've already talked about how I'm always disappointed, so why should this time be different?
Lol me and my drama...Actually, high school isn't that bad. It's gotten much better after the first few days. :) What surprises me is that the 1st day, I wasn't tardy AT ALL. :O Can you believe that? I guess my sense of direction has gotten better. But then again, I've gotten spazzier, too. So I guess it's even.
Our school's main hall is so crowded. There's like no personal space. And so many people just stand there and talk! How do they find the time? And I have to walk through that hall quite a few times, too. So I just push everyone out of my way, lol. Or if I have my violin, I just stick it in front of me, and people usually stay out of my way then 'cause they don't wanna get knocked over by my instrument. :) (So I'm guessing some people are mad at me right now..)
Speaking of instruments, my Orchestra teacher is crazy. She's good, but crazy. Lol however it makes for fun times, and I think she likes me! :D (She smiled at me twice!) Even though she still doesn't know my name, since there's so many Jenny's in our class. She likes to..vent out her excitement, I suppose. We're having a car wash, and get to play for baseball teams, and next year we get to go to AUSTRIA!! If I make Symphony.. so I have a lot of stuff to look forward to! :) (And then get disappointed again...lol.)
Well, anyways..now that I've ranted on her, I'll just rant on my other teachers worth ranting about, too.
So my Geometry teacher's cool. She works everything out very clearly, so I'm like, never confused. My World Geography teacher is really precise, and even though he's a guy, he has a girl last name. o.o lol. Plus he makes us number our spiral really weirdly. Instead of every page being a different number, he makes every assignment have a different page number. So like..our map would be page 1, and notes would be page 2, even if the map takes up 3 pages. o.o That confuses me very much.
COMPSCI. OMG our teacher goes on SUPER LONG RANTS about the book's author, and how he's stupid, or how the college board is power hungry, and stuff like that. And he just goes over this powerpoint, and adds a rant here and there, so every day I have to go home and re-review everything over again by myself. >.< It's very confusing. But I think it's just me, since I suck at computers to begin with. He said that some people will get their program running in 3 minutes, and others will take a week...I'm pretty sure I'll take a week, if not more. Sad, isn't it? Especially when I live in such a technological age.
But hey, I'm improving! Now I know how to switch between bases! :D I was all excited and told my vegetarian friend, and then he was all, "You didn't know that? Wow, you're stupid." You know what?!?! SHUT UP.
Anyways, lol. English is SO WEIRD. Like our teacher seemed SO MEAN the first few days, and wore ONLY BLACK, but apparently that was just to weed out the lazy people so they'd drop out. Now she's a bit nicer, and wears like pinks, whites, and reds. :)
Anyways apparently in her class we're not allowed to say "yeah," since it's disrespectful, and in formal papers, we can't use contractions, since that's slang, and on the second day I was tardy after lunch (I have B), and she got kinda mad at me. Like not mad, just..disappointed, I guess?
'Cause I took the wrong stairway, since I tried to take the shortcut but messed up, and so I had to run all the way across the school, and right as I was outside the bell rang. =.= And she was all, "How can you take the wrong stairway? All you have to do is take the main stairs! Or just take this hallway, and it'll bring you right up here!" Well. I couldn't talk back, so I was just like, "sorry." But I think she likes me now. :)
I have Spanish 6th period! We're just reviewing right now, but my teacher's from Spain, so she speaks mostly Spanish during the class period. =.= Anyways I can still follow her pretty well, but I still think last year's class and teacher was muuch better. :) Last year's Sr. was cool. Man, he should've moved up with us..and I should've been put in his class. >.>
Anyways last I have Biology. My teacher is really funny. He's always like sarcastic, and makes us feel stupid and crazy, lol. But I have a few friends in this class, and I made a new friend! :D He's nice.
So in the end, school's ok, I guess. There's too much homework. >.< I bet I'm gonna gain some weight this semester, since I'm not really moving around...Pah. Wish me luck?
The first week of my Freshman hs year ended, and it took FOREVER, too. (By the way, I never understood why they called us "Fish." I mean, I guess "fresh" sounds like "fish", but it's not like they call seniors "sharks" or juniors "jelly fish," so why us? Really.
Anyways I'm just gonna rant out my thoughts of high school: It's not as good as I thought it would be. Which isn't a big surprise, right? I mean, I've already talked about how I'm always disappointed, so why should this time be different?
Lol me and my drama...Actually, high school isn't that bad. It's gotten much better after the first few days. :) What surprises me is that the 1st day, I wasn't tardy AT ALL. :O Can you believe that? I guess my sense of direction has gotten better. But then again, I've gotten spazzier, too. So I guess it's even.
Our school's main hall is so crowded. There's like no personal space. And so many people just stand there and talk! How do they find the time? And I have to walk through that hall quite a few times, too. So I just push everyone out of my way, lol. Or if I have my violin, I just stick it in front of me, and people usually stay out of my way then 'cause they don't wanna get knocked over by my instrument. :) (So I'm guessing some people are mad at me right now..)
Speaking of instruments, my Orchestra teacher is crazy. She's good, but crazy. Lol however it makes for fun times, and I think she likes me! :D (She smiled at me twice!) Even though she still doesn't know my name, since there's so many Jenny's in our class. She likes to..vent out her excitement, I suppose. We're having a car wash, and get to play for baseball teams, and next year we get to go to AUSTRIA!! If I make Symphony.. so I have a lot of stuff to look forward to! :) (And then get disappointed again...lol.)
Well, anyways..now that I've ranted on her, I'll just rant on my other teachers worth ranting about, too.
So my Geometry teacher's cool. She works everything out very clearly, so I'm like, never confused. My World Geography teacher is really precise, and even though he's a guy, he has a girl last name. o.o lol. Plus he makes us number our spiral really weirdly. Instead of every page being a different number, he makes every assignment have a different page number. So like..our map would be page 1, and notes would be page 2, even if the map takes up 3 pages. o.o That confuses me very much.
COMPSCI. OMG our teacher goes on SUPER LONG RANTS about the book's author, and how he's stupid, or how the college board is power hungry, and stuff like that. And he just goes over this powerpoint, and adds a rant here and there, so every day I have to go home and re-review everything over again by myself. >.< It's very confusing. But I think it's just me, since I suck at computers to begin with. He said that some people will get their program running in 3 minutes, and others will take a week...I'm pretty sure I'll take a week, if not more. Sad, isn't it? Especially when I live in such a technological age.
But hey, I'm improving! Now I know how to switch between bases! :D I was all excited and told my vegetarian friend, and then he was all, "You didn't know that? Wow, you're stupid." You know what?!?! SHUT UP.
Anyways, lol. English is SO WEIRD. Like our teacher seemed SO MEAN the first few days, and wore ONLY BLACK, but apparently that was just to weed out the lazy people so they'd drop out. Now she's a bit nicer, and wears like pinks, whites, and reds. :)
Anyways apparently in her class we're not allowed to say "yeah," since it's disrespectful, and in formal papers, we can't use contractions, since that's slang, and on the second day I was tardy after lunch (I have B), and she got kinda mad at me. Like not mad, just..disappointed, I guess?
'Cause I took the wrong stairway, since I tried to take the shortcut but messed up, and so I had to run all the way across the school, and right as I was outside the bell rang. =.= And she was all, "How can you take the wrong stairway? All you have to do is take the main stairs! Or just take this hallway, and it'll bring you right up here!" Well. I couldn't talk back, so I was just like, "sorry." But I think she likes me now. :)
I have Spanish 6th period! We're just reviewing right now, but my teacher's from Spain, so she speaks mostly Spanish during the class period. =.= Anyways I can still follow her pretty well, but I still think last year's class and teacher was muuch better. :) Last year's Sr. was cool. Man, he should've moved up with us..and I should've been put in his class. >.>
Anyways last I have Biology. My teacher is really funny. He's always like sarcastic, and makes us feel stupid and crazy, lol. But I have a few friends in this class, and I made a new friend! :D He's nice.
So in the end, school's ok, I guess. There's too much homework. >.< I bet I'm gonna gain some weight this semester, since I'm not really moving around...Pah. Wish me luck?
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