Just Venting.

hi guys. :) Your awesome buddy here!

So...it's like, been a month and a half into the school year, and Halloween's coming up soon! :) I took a quiz on facebook, and it said that for Halloween, I should be a scarecrow. I can't believe I've never thought of that before! :D But it looked all slutty.

Anyways, I think we should all plan something and go trick or treating together. :3 wouldn't that be so fun?!

Ahh....but that's not really the reason I'm venting. This month I have a bunch of birthday parties, and my parents are all pissed at me. I asked them if I could go to church like, once or twice, and they blew up and was all like: "IT'S ONLY YOU AND YOUR LITTLE NUMBER OF FRIENDS. WHY DON'T YOU MAKE SOME MORE WHITE FRIENDS?! DO YOU THINK YOU'RE BETTER THAN THEM?! THIS IS AMERICA, NOT CHINA. EVERYONE'S RACIST AGAINST US HERE, SO YOU NEEDA WORK TEN TIMES HARDER JUST TO WORK UNDER THEM."

that was my mom.

And then they were all: "YOU'RE STARTING TO GET ALL DISTRACTED. YOUR FRIENDS ARE HAVING A BAD INFLUENCE ON YOU. STOP HANGING OUT WITH BOYS. LOOK AT ___. SHE GOT TO DUKE. AND THEN THIS GIRL, ____WENT TO UT AUSTIN. AND THIS GIRL WENT TO RICE. THEIR PARENTS WERE VERY STRICT WITH THEM, AND NOW THEY'RE AT ALL THE GOOD COLLEGES. WHAT ABOUT YOU?! WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE DIE?! ARE YOU GOING TO GO BEG ON THE STREETS?!"

and then my dad was all: "LOOK AT HOW STUPID YOU ARE! I DID WHAT YOU'RE DOING IN MATH IN 6TH GRADE! I USED TO COOK FOR MY PARENTS. AND DON'T TURN ON THE RADIO. ALL THAT JUNK MAKES MY HEAD HURT."

that was kinda random. but they're always pissed at me.

"WHY ARE THEIR SO MANY BIRTHDAY PARTIES THIS MONTH?!"

"um..I have friends."

"IT'S ALWAYS THE SAME FRIENDS. MAKE NEWER ONES. WE NEED TO BE MORE STRICT WITH YOU."

(BTW, this was all said in Chinese, and I shortened it. It went on for like, half an hour.)

But I mean SERIOUSLY! MORE STRICT WITH ME?!?!?!?! I'M NOT EVEN ALLOWED TO BIKE TO SCHOOL, AND NOW THEY'RE LIMITING MY FRIENDS!!! I CAN'T TEXT, I BARELY GET ON GMAIL, I TRY MY BEST IN SCHOOL, AND THEY'RE STILL NOT SATISFIED!!!

I barely even have a life, and they're still trying to take it away from me.

SHEESEEEESH. I WANNA CUSS SO BADLY RIGHT NOW, BUT THIS IS PUBLIC INTERNET.

ah, what the hell. who fuckin cares. and i'm sorry, michelle. i know you're like, the ideal christian, and i'm not supposed to cuss, and i'm supposed to be all holy and whatnot, and like, pray, and let God wash away all my sins.

BUT NOBODY'S PERFECT, OK?! IF I WAS THE IDEAL PERFECT CHRISTIAN THAT GOD WANTS, I'D BE LIKE GAHNDI. AND GET MURDERED. OR ABE LINCOLN. AND GET MURDERED. sorry, Lord, but I'm not in a good mood right now. ill apologize later.

For those of you that don't know me, you're probably finding this really amusing, and probably are wondering if I take anger management classes. The answer to that is no. Because if i did, i'd fail. Which would get me killed by parents. 'cause azns don't fail, apparently. It's in our blood.

gaaah. ok, I feel a bit better now. Anyways, if you're having second thoughts about being friends with me, it's ok. I'm gonna MOVE ANYWAYS.

'CAUSE MY PARENTS WANT A BIGGER HOUSE. AND A CHEAPER ONE. AND THEY WANT ME TO MAKE NEW AND WHITE FRIENDS. SO I HAVTA MOVE. Even though i still getta go to the same high school...

But I just think it's really stupid how they never see my point of view. I highly doubt that they were all perfect when they were my age. And it's not like I'm the one that has a bad attitude. they're probably causing most of it. especially with all the STRESS GOING AROUND ME!!

gawd. this sucks. and i reaaaallly wanna go to church.
sigh. i wonder how i'll end up when i grow up. for all i know, i might die tomorrow.
but anyways, thanks for ...visiting the blog. :]